better left unsaid

life really offers its complexities at most of the time, it's up to you at the end to decide which to choose not just as the correct one but as well as the one you think which will be best for you. A thing may be right for you but will not be for other people, there may be something you know would benefit a lot to others but not to you. sometimes things are good for some but not for the others. You just need to know which to prioritize more than the other. there will just be a need for that word 'sacrifice'. letting out of what we feel is sometimes good but not all the time, maybe time is just not right yet for what you are feeling to be out, or people to be hearing might not be ready yet to listen, or situations just don't allow it to happen at the moment. Conflicting factors all of which have all good points but up it's to you to make the choice of what you think or feel would bring as much as possible the best result.
Not just sometimes, are the words coming out of our mouth important. What comes out is what our inside want to let go, but just like them things mentioned above, not at all times. many mouth and heart pairs do not speak the same thing, the mouth may speaking of somthing else that the heart does not at all agree with. the mouth is controlled against what the heart wants to say. it is a better thing to be able to clearly speak up of what deeply is inside of our heart, that reflects what we really are. the words as they come from the beneath of our hearts out through the tip of our tongues, are the carrier of the feelings we like to voice out. letting out of these feelings may prevent the sudden burst if we try to collect and collect and keep inside what we think our hearts could still handle inside it. words may improve help motivate encourage affirm advice strengthen, but also at the same time may be a cause of hurt too. and with it that the words may also give hurt to anyone, maybe we can conclude that really there are things that are better left unsaid.

18hours awake

Last night, it was almost 1am when i got to bed. Then in the middle of my sleep, maybe it's just some minutes after 5am, my phone begun to ring... It was a call from a friend, who happened to have unlimited calls during the off peak hours. Yes, meaning she can call whoever in the same network she wish to call for unlimited time only between 11pm and 6am. And she will be really disturbing sleeps just like what she did to me... The call was cut before a minute counted, and with that i was very thankful! That i thought i can again continue with my interrupted sleep and get back to dreaming under my blanket. But i was wrong, few moments after i disconnected with the phone call, i was awakened by my mom. She was asking to wake up so we could take a walk at the subdivision mext to ours. That time i'd like to just feel like deaf so as not to hear her voice.. But luckily for my mom, she got me to go walking with them that early in the morning... We arrived at the place, but i was feeling very lazy to jog, knowing i was not wearing my own running shoes that time. I just walked two rounds with my mom and brother. Two rounds summing to 4.4kms. A fine length for me to jog not to just walk. Anyways, at least i got my legs stretched a bit by that short walk we did...

I had my breakfast when we got back home, and then after i went through my chores at home, the usual, cleaning... I had a schedule at 11am of going to the baptism of my friend angel's son. I was one of the sponsors. It was good, good food, catering service and weather though it poured rain for a while but it ended still.

When i got home from angel's reception, we ran to the farm to open the store with for less than half hour. Then in the afternoon, we attended the mass. In the evening, i, my friend and my brother, decided that we go to the resort near our house. The pools were so not crowded with people, but instead, the it seems like we are the only people in the pool. I think we were only 5 in the pool.

I was home at 1030. And with that i would like to cut my waking hours and take a enough sleep. My eyes are already shutting off on its own during the later part of me writing this letter, so i'll now take you to the end part of the story... I am now very sleepy, and just be right back until the next posts i will have.. good night and sweet dreams! =)

time flies! grrrrh..

badtrip! it's so disgusting to get lost of the times, particularly the clock times, when i posted my past blogs... i wasn't able to format earlier the correct time zone that is used that is why when i corrected it, all the time publication of all my blogs were changed! and it's just so stupid that i wasn't able to remember the default setting of the time zone.... grrrhh... nobody's to be blame, all my fault hmmp! and i really had the hardest time retrieving those.. so you'll see that other publication times are similar, those were all guesses and i don't want already to change them, i'll just leave them as they are, i better go get some sleep cause it's getting too late, or should i say too early in the morning that iam still facing this idiot box of my pc... well there's no more nice thing to do but to close it all here,

i've got posted a lot already and be right back and i'll be pausing for some time until i get going again and play after another day...

good night to me and sweet dreams as well...

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my week schedule!

21 - monday sessions / go back to manila +blog
22 - school early in the morning and all day +blog
23 - school life again +blog
24 - and again / badminton / st. jude +blog
25 - and again / supposed to be departure for sagada in the evening :( +blog
26 - only school again then home +blog
27 - ucf baptism / must be sitio mabilog comserv +blog
28 - yet's bday +blog

very much subject to changes and alterations (it this a right term?)... and mostly additions... but never forget +blog...heheheh...

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my inaanak + ucf next week

juliana - beside me in this picture and my cutie inaanak, look just how this kid very smartly smile in front of the camera, just like her ashley.. this is how she terms her aunties, just like those in the soap/fantaserye enkantadia. nax i seem to be promoting the show but anyways... i think liana (short for juliana) is my 5th inaanak, my first from my cousins.. and it just so happen that she will already be followed by anew one, the baby of a dear friend, angel.. yousiff avery, that will be his christian name, nice isn't it and a bit unique, but from what i know, it is no longer unique because someone has already owned the same kind of name. But that will be just fine, what matters is that iam again becoming a ninang of another cute baby, this a boy.. Well his baptism will be this coming sunday... yes, this sunday, meaning, it will be on the same day with that of the scheduled sagada trip. But right now it does not bother me anymore, i have decided i should just come to my friend's baptismal party and maybe just wait for another out of town trip that will no longer be conflicting with other ocassions..

ok, back to liana, she is ate pam's cutie, cheerful, naughty, kulit, pretty, maldita, smart daughter... and her greatest asset, that most have been fantasizing for, even me at a time and another have made on myself, is her curls! liana got the curls that not every salon can do, her natural curls... So much this til my next blog again i am taking a break, a pause ( )

armageddon

this is the movie i was able to watch just this morning.. and i was not even able to watch it but i finished it. it is a great thing for me to finish a movie because, i know it is embarassing for others to know that i hardly finish movies because, everytime i do watch a film, especially at home, in the middle of the screening, all of a sudden my views turn black out. yes i many times or i may say most of the time can not finish movies because i easily fall asleep during viewing.. Funny aisn't it and most of all embarassing.

Anyways, let me take you to the movie, armageddon. it has touched my heart and it brought me tears falling from my eyes. it just so lonely to see the part when harry, bruce willis, as the father, who went out there in the space and has no choice, to be able to stop a massive destruction of the entire world that is to come in just a matter of minutes, but to be left alone in the asteroid he and his teamates has been to, is delivering his goodbyes to his daughter grace... it made me really teary eyed that time, and i just thought of how really hard it is for a person to let go of someone truly special for him. and another thing is that you have no command of letting things to not be done, because allowing it to happen would benefit not only you but also really many people..

To sum it up, i really found the movie beautiful.. maybe this is just the right time for me to be able to see it because i don't think that if ever i was able to watch it years ago when it was released it won't make a touch to me as much as it has did this time...

I Don't want to miss a Thing - Aerosmith

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch your smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

*Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

*

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

And then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

forever and ever

*

I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

*

the end of the movie..

mosquito bites

they just not bite me, they even leave me marks you won't like to see.... why are mosquitoes such? don't they know i am busy doing my blog then all of a sudden they'd be coming around me irritating me with the itchy feeling of their bites... i can't turn on the fan all because it is cold if i do. hmmp to all these crazy mosquitoes...

it's our 15th month today

it is the 20th of the month and again a special day for me... i realized that as the days continue to grow in numbers, the more are the things i want to happen to make each passing day special for this person are becoming. We are not growing any younger but instead we are coming to face stages that are far different from what we've been in the start but it's just so nice and good to feel to relinquish those moments that have occured from those early days that we shared..

Well being far physically right now to the person i am referring to, to the love of my life, is not really easy. i really miss him so much, that how i wish he could just be sitting here beside me giving me warmth in the midst of these past cold nights, considering that it is really becoming colder during this season. But though this might be the case, i know i just need to make the sacrifice, and also for him, of not able to see each other until the time that we still both don't know when. But knowing that his being away is something better for him, for it is where he will be having work, it just gently becoming fine for the both of us... As long as we both have trust for each other, we can hold on. I really appriciate the way he taught me how we found our relationship to be strong in times like this.

And this time, i really want to make him feel more special than before.. when he comes back, i'd like to do things we have not done yet before, like having a formal dinner, that i will be preparing, i picture it in my mind nicely and i hope it would come to realization as it is. funny it may seem to become for the two of us but i just like it that way.. this is only one of what i am thinking of for his coming and just really makes me more excited of the day his arrival will be..

well i think i already got to give myself a good (beauty) rest.. i'll be pausing here and play again until the next time.. ( )

just my new blog

a bit of excitement is what i feel right now, having been able to start a blog of my own... and how i wish i could, from this moment on, be able to do this regularly, maybe starting with weekly basis, then every 2 days or 3, then later on better as everyday... But how do i make my blog alive?

so this is my gameplan! i better set first myself the time i will be allotting, maybe 15 minutes everyday will do, for jotting down my insights and feelings and must-be-writtens in this 'my blog'.. to think that it will only cost me, if i'll take the free net in the library, a no more than 200m walk, or if i prefer to do it outside, 10-15bucks.. next, the hardest part , i think, is for me how to make that 15 minute possible... ;) well, let's just see and hope i could keep it up, for the longest time... anyways, let me welcome myself, to my newest blog! and also the people who will find their wrong way to my blog...

til here and til the next post... :)